children and flying horse Chapter six Marble Ball Box

Saturday afternoon, Cloud Ma was home alone.  He took out the marble ball box.   Collecting marble balls was his
hobby since childhood.   He like to collect all kind of marble balls, different shapes, round, flat, size like
ping-pong, or green beans,  or peas with many different kind of material.   He likes the marble balls.
Concentrated on checking what is inside.   He feels the marble balls look like the planets running in the universe.
Some marble balls filling with different stuff, different shape and graphic, some of them are landscape. 
Once he found out there was something like control panel board.   After he grow up, he found out the structure
he saw from the marble ball was almost the same as the structure of the interior of space shuttle.   He did not
tell that to any one else, even if his father.  He gets used to find the answer of everything by himself.
He always know that one day the secret of marble ball will be found out.
Sometimes he lays in bed, image if he is some one else, lives in different country, speaks totally different language,
having different live, what that will be ?   Is his life will be totally different ?  Will be have a mother in different space?
When is man's memory gets started?  People usually think that a baby do not have memory from childhood, but his memory
recall him faintly.  It was was a very deep night, some music sound sent around his cot, then his mother holding him, close the
her chest.  She humed something.  He remember the rhythm, because sometimes he hum the same notes without knowing.
It was a very small piece, but the memory always shake in his head when everytime he tried to remember more.
His brain not able to catch anything.
Then he remember some temperature, the temperature when his mother touches him.  Sometimes, he uses his hand to cover
on his chest , to feel his mother's temperature.  He feels the warm feeling pass though from the chest.
So difficult to explain.
Althought the knowledge of science keep improveing, but it seems there was not certain answer about feelings, about
human's memories.  It seems not correct answer about that.  Human body seems the biggest mystery.  Why human
being has blood, muscle, bones and nerves, and comes with feeling , ablility to think, and power to predict?
Such things are impossible to be understood, or, he does not want to understand.  The only thing he hopes
is the warm feeling will never disappear.
The death of Cloud's mother was totally a mystery.   It was not snowing a lot on the their way home from shopping mall,
not big enought to make the car slipped, that to hit on a pole which is about 15 meters far from the drive way, just like to be
sucked by magnetc. 
Then they always thought he does not remember anything from childhood.
Ma family keep sucking in blank days for one year.   His father lost the ability to live, cannot think , and not able to take care of him.
He was sent to live with a relative, and his father being treated in a nursing home.  Sometimes the relative bring him the
house they used to live,  the grass in the front yard has been very long , the swing has broken,  swimming pool is empty,
the bottom of the pool shows mildews, the house became strange to him.
The year after, his father brough him back to Taiwan.   His father did not want to work for any organization, that he chose to
be a hermit to live in the mountain.
In every important moment, he always buy a marble ball to present his situation.  Like the amber color one, he got
after wining the championship of spelling competition, and the one with snowflake is birthday gift from his mother.
The marble ball he got after first time he riding his bicycle and the flat shape marble he got when he back to Taiwan. 
The crystal marble from his auntie when he was three, and the orange color marble his neighbor Tom sent him.
 He check though the marble balls one by one, watching the clear luster from the marble balls.  Then he falling asleep.
By the time he work up, the marble balls falling everywhere.   He looks for the marble ball right way, some of them rolling
under the bed, he tried to bring them out with tool.   The he heard some sound of da da da past from the underneath of the bed.
Why there is sound from underneath of the bed?  Is this?